How do you say goodbye?

For those that may not know I am in California right now for no other reason but to visit family and friends. Last night I visited with my Gram and Bappy (my dads parents) and I found myself unable to say goodbye. Bappy is not doing well, in fact he hasn't been doing well for a while but this is the worst he has ever been and there is no hope of improvement. We know this and he knows this and because we all know, he is embarrassed. In our usual tradition I was supposed to stay the night with them but found myself driving home at 8pm to keep him from getting agitated that I was there for so long. He refuses to go to the doctor even though his conditions is growing rapidly worse. He refuses to have company over, friends that he has known forever are being turned away at the door and their gifts going unnoticed. Because I didn't stay the night I am going back on Thursday to make them dinner, which brings up my question...how am I going to say goodbye? It was easy last night because I told them I would see them Thursday but I will be going home next week and then what? In all likelihood this will be my last opportunity to spend time with him and I would be perfectly content with just sitting with him in silence holding his hand, but will he let me?

Never Satisfied

Its 2 o'clock in the morning and I am at work. I am in the nursery right now and only have three babies to look after, I should be thrilled. The last few weeks have been crazy with not enough hours in my 12 hour shift to get every thing done. So I'm putting it nicely when I say that I have been cranky and worn out. But not tonight. 90% of my work is already done and I am just literaly hanging out for 5 more hours. Then I can go home to my baby and take care of her instead of everyone elses. But it is going sooooo slow that I am once again cranky and worn out... I am just never satisfied at work...

So far behind...

Lately I feel as though I am losing my mind trying to keep up on everything so forgive me for the long months of silence! I don't have much time to do this so let see where do I start to get you all caught up? Katelyn has had a lot of firsts lately. For example this morning is give me her first zerburt. We have had first kisses, first time sitting up all on her own, followed by first time sitting in her high chair with a sippy cup. She is getting so big and learning things so quickly she amazes us all the time! Here are some pics to catch you up on how big she has gotten...

Lastly I wanted to share her first time eating cereal, lucky for us so has gotten used to it and now even sometimes sometimes opens her mouth for it :-D Well that is it for now hopefully I can write more soon, and by soon I mean before Christmas ;-)

Like I need another thing to try and keep up on!?!?

So I too have caught the blogging bug. As if myspace and facebook don't consume enough of my time. What am I thinking? Well I will tell you (isn't that what bloggings all about), I can't log on to myspace or facebook while at work. So for a whole 12 hours I have restricted internet acess. That used to drive me crazy until I discovered that blogging is not restriced (yet) :-D. Now I know that this probably reflects poorly on my work ethics but rest assured that this will not distract me from my patient care. Because that would imply that I have patients to take care of which most nights I don't. See I work in a tiny country hospital where we only deliver approx. 60-80 babies a month and those are usualy scheduled for day time as to prevent the doctors from *gasp* waking up in the middle of the night. So needless to say most nights I am BORED OUT OF MY MIND!! Not any more though! Well its 5:30am so its time to clean up and start getting things ready for day shift. Happy 4th of July...